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I'm a day late with my quarterly journal and I don't even have much to say. 

I haven't done much around here lately, which is odd considering I had decided this was going to be the year when I was going to make a lot of things happen. But then again that might be the very cause: I often corner myself into doing something, then it stops being fun, my motivation and inspiration vanish and the machinery comes to a full stop.

My daily sculpting thing is probably not going to happen this year. I wanted to do it but I really have no time, or motivation, and I really hated my most recent attempts at sculpting anything. It feels, again, like I lost whatever little skill I had. Why must everything you stop practicing just atrophy so easily? So maybe it'll come back someday, maybe it won't. At some point I will try to finish some sculpts I already started, at least that much I promised myself, and it should be doable (?

I'll stick around, since I always do, but probably my only activity will be another journal like this in December and little else.

Æmilius Rose

Four years on dA

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 28, 2016, 3:54 PM
Ok, I really don't have much to say, and I haven't been doing much of anything around here lately either, but every 4 months I write a journal on the 28th, and April 28 is always special because it marks my anniversary on dA. Four years ago I joined and, distant as I've been for the past months, I'm still glad I did. I wasn't used to doing much about my hobbies. I've had plans, ideas and projects shelved and stalled for literally years. And dA gave me a place, a purpose and an excuse to make a few things finally happen, learn some new techniques and interact with a lot of amazing people. So I celebrate it, once again.

Thank you all, for everything.

Happy New Year! (and tags)

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 28, 2015, 8:50 PM

So, it's time once again for my quarterly journal thingy. I've been a bit distant from dA lately and I don't have much to say, except for hoping you had some very happy holidays and wish you a great 2016! 

My 2015 in dA was nothing like my very consistent 2014. Oddly enough, this year I made more deviations in a single month (with my daily sculpting thing in September) than I did in all of 2014, let alone the rest of 2015. I've put sculpting on hold again, to pursue something else. Unfortunately that is just about to fall through, so I imagine my 2016 will be more normal and active here at dA again.

So that's that, I suppose. My year was rather uneven and odd, so there's no "Year in art" video, summary or anything this year. I will try to make at least a single sculpture per month next year, hopefully more. Cya next year!

Update: I changed my mind, and also I found the way to c̶h̶e̶a̶t̶ fill out the 12 spaces, and I made a 2015 summary of art after all :P

Recently I was tagged by :icondomnics: so I thought I'd respond to that now.

1. What is one really good movie that you've seen recently? It doesn't have to be one that came out this year.
The one that I can think of right now is "Ex Machina". I still haven't seen "The Martian" or "Crimson Peak", and obviously the movies of the year for me were "Jurassic World" and "The Force Awakens", but those probably don't qualify as good, they're just big.

2. What is the worst Christmas gift you've ever been given? 
I think once I was given a chocolate bar... which I would have welcomed under different circumstances, but this one had raisins.

3. What is the worst Christmas gift you've ever given to someone else?
I'm terrible for xmas gifts, the whole year I see things that make me think of people I love and I get it for them, but when the actual birthdays and holidays come I generally have nothing, and I end up giving generic gifts, or some crap I make myself, if at all.

4. Do you have any memorable embarrassing moments?
I can't think of any particular one, but often happens that I say something inconvenient precisely when everybody else goes quiet, and my thing becomes perfectly audible and identifiable. That used to happen to a character in a comedy I grew up with, and it's ridiculous how often it happened to me, specially in school.

5. Have you ever had a really bad/funny/embarrassing picture taken of you? Please describe in great detail. Ahem.
I banned photography during my most awkward phase, so I'm safe there, lol. And I have a crippling sense of ridicule, so I try not to get myself into that kind of situation, though I probably do it every now and then.

6. What is a song that you are currently obsessed with? 
Hmmm, that changes permanently. I don't think I have any right now. But for several days I had a German electronic thing called "Sky and Sand" stuck in my head. "One day I'll fly away" too, the "Moulin Rouge" version.

7.  Have you ever had a supernatural experience or something that you just can't find any rational explanation for? 
Not really... unless I take seriously what felt like a couple out-of-body "experiences" I had, but I really don't. They were very similar and I always went in the same direction, almost to the same place. But I always woke up and out of it in a weird and almost painful way.

8. Who are your top five favorite characters and why?
That's a big question that could make me write an essay, but I'll try to keep it simple. In no specific order: the vampire Lestat from Anne Rice's "Vampire Chronicles", Hannibal Lecter from the Thomas Harris novels, Ellie Arroway from Carl Sagan's only novel "Contact", Gaston Leroux's "Phantom of the opera" in most of its incarnations... and I'm having trouble finding a fifth one that's worthy of the top 5 list... I'd like to say something fancy and cultured like Holden Caulfield or whatever, but I'll end up saying... either Raziel from the "Legacy of Kain" saga, or Jedi Master Quinlan Vos, probably the only two characters that I would like to cosplay as. And as for the reason why I chose these characters, I guess I identify with outcasts and misfits, though I'm nowhere near that interesting, and I'm certainly not a vampire, a cannibal, a radioastronomer, a deformed genius or a Jedi. I'm just a lonely weirdo.

How do you react when there's an awkward silence in a conversation? 
All over socially awkward as I am, I'm generally the one to blame for those, and if my interlocutor doesn't do something about it I probably won't either.

10. Do you have any weird things you do when no one is in the house? 
I'd say singing. Don't know if that's weird, but it's something I wouldn't get caught doing while accompanied, unless it's sotto voce. But when I'm alone I sing in full voice, and probably the neighbors hear it, but I don't care about that. I at least have the decency not to do that at ungodly hours, even though that's when I really feel like singing.

Update 2: I was also tagged by :icondimitrikjr: so here are my answers :P

1. How was your winter break? Got any cool gifts for Christmas?
It's summer here, and it was awfully hot in the last days of 2015, it's been rainy these first days of 2016, I'll welcome the rain if it brings lower temperatures. Cool gifts? Not really for xmas, generally I get chocolates or stuff for xmas. I did get some cool "The Force Awakens" stuff for New Years, for some reason :giggle:

2. What is your new year's resolution?
I didn't really make any this time, I generally fail or jinx myself when I do :P For once I really don't know what to expect out of this year. I feel like 2016 is some kind of an unpredictable beast and I'll try to tame it as it comes... And I think it might very well devour me too :O 

3. When you watch an animated movie, are the visuals important to you or do you care mostly about the plot?
I guess it's 50-50. I can't stand poorly written things, I can take something simple, I collaborate and suspend my disbelief and everything, but I can't stand it when they start pulling stuff out of nowhere or don't make the most of the plot points they have. Of course visuals are important, but not everything has to be eye-candy. Some really beautiful and compelling movies are either simple looking or downright "ugly" looking, and when that's an aesthetic choice, I respect it. I do appreciate movies that are everything they're trying to be. The funny thing is when a movie aims to be something, and it fails terribly at it.

4. Are you currently watching any animated shows? If so, which one(s)?
Hmmm... not really. I think the closest to a current animated thing I've been watching is some Marvel Knights stuff, which is basically animated more of a motion-comic kind of thing because I'd like to do something like that myself, since I can't do proper animation :P Oh, I did watch some "Star Wars - Rebels", but I guess I lost interest at some point and I barely saw anything of season two.

5. Who is your biggest influence/inspiration?
That's a tough one... I really have no simple answer, I come from so many different places and I do (or try to do) so many different things, I can't quite put my finger on a single thing or person influencing my "style", if I even have such a thing. Probably when it comes to fanart subjects, the one that inspires me the most to do a variety of things in all mediums is Sarah Brightman, though I've shared like 0.5% of that here on dA. I've been her fan since the mid-'90s and I've had several fansites themed after her and her releases. And I keep doing it, even when I share it with very few people nowadays.

6. Do you find inspiration for art from other stuff in life (such as food)?
From other things that aren't art at all...? I don't know... I guess just life itself. I haven't written anything in ages, but in my filmschool days I used to write short stories and short screenplays, and I was often inspired by real people and real places. I'd see someone or some place, or I'd over hear someone's conversation and that'd trigger something in me. I'd end up writing something completely different, but the inspiration generally came from a real thing. 

7. What is your favorite fairytale or folk story?
Hmmm... For some reason I used to love stories in which magical creatures interfered in human affairs without them knowing. I used to love that possibility, like the elves helping the shoemaker at night, that kind of thing. Generally I felt those simpler stories were more relatable, I felt like it could almost happen.

8. Do you have any guilty pleasure movies or shows?
I haven't been watching much tv lately. Probably I watch too much youtube, though. And that's the guiltiest thing I can think of with now :P

9. What usually helps you to stay motivated to create art?
Probably trying to stay active. My motivation tends to wane pretty soon, so if I can't stay motivated by what I'm doing, I'll try to do something else. I have to try for the machinery not to come to a full stop, or it'd be extra hard to get it started again.

10. Do you ever stay awake during nights to draw and do you feel more productive during night time?
I am ABSOLUTELY nocturnal. During the day I can do some research, or somehow set up what I'm going to do at night, but little else. Whatever I make was 99% made at night :P

Now I was also tagged by :icongrace-zed:

1.) Name: My nickname is the original latin version of my actual name, and my last name is the same as a revolutionary icon, that's all I'll say :P (Lick)
2.) Nicknames: I don't think I have any apart from Æmilius.
3.) Age: *mumble*-six :P (Lick) I'll be *mumble*-seven in May Giggle
4.) Birthday: May 10th.
5.) Health freak: Not even close. Cutting out gluten was the one healthy thing I've done lately, but only because I absolutely had to :P (Lick)
6.) Favorite color: Dunno if I have one, maybe dark red... burgundy?
7.) Gender: Male.
8.) Elementary school: It was ok in general, it only got infernal at the end :P (Lick)
9.) Middle school: We don't have actual middle school here. 
10.) High school: Absolutely infernal, I ended up going to three different high-schools in three different towns.
11.) College: I went to filmschool, it started all promising and it opened up my mind to a whole new world and started to shape me into what I always wanted to be... then it went sour and I dropped out.
12.) Tall or short: I'm relatively tall, I guess.
13.) Sweats or jeans: sweats around the house, jeans to go out.
14.) Girly girl or tomboy: Not sure how to answer to that, being a dude :P (Lick) I guess I'm not terribly macho but not a sissy either? XD
15.) Phone or camera: Camera
16.) Taken or single: Is forever alone an option?
17.) Talent: Err... none? XD
18.) Swag or emo: Neither.
19.) Gamer: Not so much anymore, sadly. 
20.) Best friends: I feel like I'm no longer in touch with anyone IRL. 
21.) Biggest fears: Just disappearing with nobody ever noticing...? Too real? :P (Lick)
22.) Hardest thing you had to do: I can't think of anything that's not too serious or personal right now.
23.) Have/had depression: Yes. Been depressive most of my life now... Too real, again.
24.) Got piercings: No.
25.) Got tattoos: No. 
26.) Long/medium/short hair: Long-ish, actually I haven't had a haircut in 20 years :P (Lick)
27.) Favorite food: I want to say pizza too, though mine has to be gluten-free now.
28.) Ever been on an airplane: No, I'm poor :P (Lick)
29.) Pants or dress/skirt: Pants, duh :P (Lick)
30.) Height: was like 1.73m last time I got measured, long ago. I don't know how much is that in feet.
31.) Weight: I don't even want to know anymore :P (Lick) 
32.) Married: Pass.
33.) Have kids: No!
34.) Worst day of your life: Again, I can't think of anything that's not too serious or too personal.
35.) Hair color: It's dark brown when you see it in the sunlight, though it might seem black.
36.) Skin Color: Brown... ish?
37.) Eye color: Brown.
38.) Race: Latino, I guess. Though some people say that's not an actual race.
39.) Glasses or no glasses: No glasses.
40.) Orange or apple: Apple. I don't like oranges, only orange juice I guess.

I've been wanting to write this journal since September ended, but time passed, procrastination happened, and I wasn't too sure there was a point to keep spamming with this anyway. But well, I guess it was always part of the initial plan to write a sort of aftermath journal, so here it is.

Video compiling all 30 renders and turntable animations

As some of you may know, after a long sculpting hiatus that went from late March to mid August, on September 2015 I set out to 3D-sculpt a different character every day. I called it S.E.D.S. (Sculpt Every Day in September). All the pieces were made in Sculptris and Zbrush, rendered in Keyshot and finished in Photoshop.

I've been wanting to do something like this for a long time. I almost did it every past April, for each anniversary of my joining deviantArt. But it was never really possible, I was either busy or demotivated, as I often am. But then this August I shyly returned to sculpting and started posting a few WIPs, and then September came with me posting a couple WIPs in a row, so I decided I'd keep doing it all month and finally do a whole month of daily sculpts.

So that's what it was going to be like in the beginning: mostly unfinished sculpts, glorified WIPs, generally busts, and I was going to stick to what I knew. But that got old almost immediately, and I started doing some full body sculpts, to give them a better finishing, to make my interactive turntable animations for each one, and to use Zbrush tools and techniques I knew close to nothing about. Very often I'd watch tutorials and teach myself how to do something on the same day I had to apply it, risking failing and missing the daily deadline. Many times I started characters I got stuck with and had to abandon them and move on to something simpler or something that suddenly made sense to me. I had a list of ideas for characters for the whole month, but in the end I did whatever I felt like doing and worked out each day. Initially I sculpted characters based on how appealing it was for me to sculpt them and little else, of course they all belonged to something I either love or grew up with, then towards the end I had this instinct of having my dearest IPs and fandoms represented, but some had to be left out. What made me the happiest was to be able to wrap up S.E.D.S. with a Sarah Brightman sculpture. I had spent several years trying to make an actual 3D Sarah, but I was never too happy with the results so I only shared parts of that with very few people. So I'm glad I could finally make and publish a 3D-SB. And there will be more! I'm also happy I finally got my foot in the door to making fanart based on many franchises and properties I always wanted to tackle.

I decided this project should be 100% fanart because it'd be easier to base my daily sculptures on already existing and recognizable designs. First, so I wouldn't have to also design something on the fly everyday, and second so there would be a frame of reference to compare and see whether I made a decent job or not. Probably, if I do this again, I will make it all about my original creature/monster/alien designs for a change. Which I might sketch out and collect in previous months, so I won't have to struggle with 100% of the design issue every day, though I'd like to leave some slots empty for 'improvisation' as well. We'll see. This time I tried to keep it as diverse as I could, next time probably there will be a stricter theme.

I didn't feel there was this lack of involvement and participation in dA other deviants talked about, until I did this. I never had more ever-pending or downright expired group submissions. So I stopped trying, maybe now in October I'll resume that, and try to submit some of the best pieces to some groups again. I wasn't expecting any special attention anyway, and I can't really complain. I initially even thought my watchers might find it annoying to have 1000% more stuff from me than usual, but most everybody's been very supportive, and some new watchers were also very interested in what I was doing. And that continues to be priceless.

I honestly didn't think I'd make it when I began. I thought I'd miss a couple days or more, and I was willing to still consider it a success if I did. So I can't believe I made it all the 30 days of September, it's almost unlike me. I'm rarely able to stick to my own projects and carry them out to completion. I jump from one thing to another and I literally have things that have been in the works, on and off, for many years. Now September is well over, I'm back to my usual demotivated self. There's at least three sculptures I want to do in October, but I'm already behind my schedule. My Disney Villains series just might make a Halloween comeback, and other ghoulish things should come this month too.

With S.E.D.S. being complete, I guess the one advice I can give is: give it a try! Challenge yourself to make something, a piece of whatever it is you do, in whatever medium, every day of a month, it is an amazing test on many levels. Coming up with an idea everyday, researching it, executing it, experimenting, trying out and learning new things, all of that enters the experience and you'll end up doing things you weren't able or motivated to do when you didn't have a deadline and a workflow this hectic. That sure was my experience. When I set out to do this, I looked for what precedents there were, and I didn't really find any. Oddly enough, I got told some other people were simultaneously doing something they called Sculptember for the first time this year. Some people are doing Inktober now too. It really is a great experience, you should give it a try. Thank you for the support and for checking out this and all my S.E.D.S. things. 

S.E.D.S. 2015 by AEmiliusLives

Individual deviations
Evil-Lyn ● Kain ● Fortesque ● Gizmo ● Michaelangelo ● Slimer
Totoro ● Watto ● Deadpool ● Akuma ● Monkey ● Skeksis
Pavi ● Kang ● Sally ● Dilophosaurus ● Reptile ● Robbie
Ludo ● TheThing ● Quasimodo ● Dobby ● Wallace&Gromit ● Lara
Hannibal ● SwampThing ● Mano ● Xenomorph ● Rameses ● Sarah

Interactive S.E.D.S. gallery

So it's time to write this type of journal again, as I do every four months (or that was a couple of days ago, really). I had to write other journals in between, but the previous quarterly journal wasn't very positive. I was completely demotivated and almost felt like I had forgotten how to do the things I used to do, so I couldn't even force myself to do anything. I didn't do any 3D-sculpting (or much of anything dA related) for over four months. I've always been naturally on the gloomy side, but these last months I had a weird episode that for a while I was even in denial of. Realizing and acknowledging it was a good first step.

Right now I feel better, but now quite the same I was before any of this. I'm doing things again, but not quite what I used to do. I still haven't resumed my Disney Villains series, for example. But I'm finally producing some fanart around some properties I always wanted to tackle, and in the rest of 2015 I'll post some stuff I always intended to have in my gallery but never did, for real now. I have many plans and ideas for September too.

I'm glad I'm still here. This place is still a unique, priceless thing to have, and the people are still wonderful. Recently I've been posting some WIPs and stuff trying to get back in the saddle and everything's been well received. I noticed these days I reached 300 watchers, which probably doesn't sound like much, but in my standards is a good thing. I also renewed my premium... err... Core Logo (Blinking) membership, and made the decision of trying to be more active here again.

Newgalleryicons by AEmiliusLives

Speaking of my gallery, I'll be slowly revamping it and rearranging it. Getting rid of some stuff that no longer makes sense to feature and trying to highlight new sections. I already made new icons (above) for my gallery folders, and some new banners (below) for my profile, which I'll also be customizing and trying to renovate these days.

Newprofilebanners by AEmiliusLives

I guess that's it for August 2015. Thanks for sticking around.
  1. How long have you been on DeviantArt? 
    I've been on dA for 3 years and three months now. Though I created an account many years ago, I never really used it and eventually closed it down. I regret that now :P (Lick)

  2. What does your username mean?
    Over a decade ago I created a sort of Mary-Sue vampire OC, kinda named after me too :P (Lick) and then I took his name back for myself. I've been vampire ÆmiliusÆmilius RequiemÆmilius ResurrectionÆmilius LivesÆmilius Reborn and probably there will be more iterations of it.

  3. Describe yourself in three words.
    Insecure. Introverted. Autodidact.

  4. Are you left or right handed?
    Right handed.

  5. What was your first deviation?
    I honestly didn't remember so I had to check. It was the first in a series of photos I took at night, with a tripod in the fog: Into the Mist I

  6. What is your favourite type of art to create?
    I always wanted to diversify, but I guess 3D sculpting is what I've done the most here. I'd like to have more flash animations, and photography.

  7. If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be?
    I wish I could draw, and paint in a realistic style. That'd help me to do many things I cannot do now. I also wish I was better at 3D sculpting and I could do some "real" 3D animation.

  8. What was your first favourite?
    Turns out it wasn't the one I thought it was. I was pleasantly surprised to find it was Schwere Traume by SBFlyFan :) (Smile)

  9. What type of art do you tend to favourite the most?
    When it comes to subject it's probably fanart. When it comes to medium/technique I probably :+fav: more digital art than traditional, mostly digital drawing/paintings, 3D modelling/sculpting, then in a very distant 3rd place I'd say manips.

  10. Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist?
    Probably Stjepan Šejić (nebezial ), that epic bastard XD I love what he and his wife Linda (sigeel) do.

  11. If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be?
    Wow, that's a tough one. I don't know... it'd probably be great meeting some of the most experienced professionals in here, but at the same time it'd be cool to meet some of the artists I've already interacted with the most, here and on social media, and became friends with.

  12. How has a fellow deviant impacted your life?
    So many people have been so enormously supportive, but I think I have to go back to my first :+fav: and say my fellow Sarah Brightman fan SBFlyFan . He was the one I asked about dA, right before opening my current account. And he told me it'd be a great place for me and my stuff. He was right and I've had a great experience here, and a unique place to share what I do, learn new things and interact with like-minded people. Something I didn't really have until dA. Reinhold-Hoffmann is also someone who, perhaps unknowingly, has influenced and guided me into doing things I probably wouldn't have done on my own.

  13. What are your preferred tools to create art?
    I wish I could say something more than just my computer :P (Lick) But that's it, I have a graphic tablet but I never got used to it, so whatever I do I do with mouse and keyboard. I guess Sculptris and Photoshop are the programs I use the most. Then there's ZBrush, but I'm only still learning, and I'm making renders in Keyshot now. I use SwishMax for flash animations a lot, but I rarely post them here.

  14. What is the most inspirational place for you to create art?
    Physical place...? Being bound to my desktop computer, there's nowhere else I can go to do it :P (Lick) But for inspiration I like to go out for a walk, clear my mind and have some quality time with myself. I don't do it enough, though.

  15. What is your favourite DeviantArt memory?
    To mention a specific thing, I once came here and found ThreshTheSky had given me a month of premium (now core :P ) membership. It was greatly generous of him and it gave me a glimpse into what I was missing out of the complete dA experience. I never had any kind of premium membership on any website either. So as soon as I could I got myself a membership, almost by accident, though. Because I was trying to buy concert tickets elsewhere, but that wasn't working, so I came here to try if the whole paypal account worked at all. And over here it did XD Long story short (too late? :P (Lick) ) I had to get cheaper concert tix and apologize to my aunt for using her credit card in something other than the tickets :giggle:

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Three years ago I (re)joined deviantArt. I'm still glad I did, and it's been swell... but... this is awkward :blush: I've completely failed this month and missed my schedule horribly. As the 28th of every month, my seventeenth Disney Villain was supposed to go up today, and the truth is I never even began working on him (it was probably going to be Gaston). My April's non-Disney deviation (though it's Marvel, so... you know) was going to be this sculpture of "Guardians of the Galaxy"s baby Groot:

But in the end I didn't really like how it turned out and I'm not even willing to go "back to the drawing board" with it right now. 

I don't know what my May is going to be like. I was working on something for May the Fourth Use the force! But I can't really say whether or not I'll be able to finish it in time, hopefully there will be a new Disney Villain in my gallery next month and I'll complete my series this year. But I can't promise anything, even to myself right now. For this 3rd dA anniversary I was going to revamp my profile and my gallery, but I didn't do that either. My premium membership ends in a few months anyway, so I figure most of the customization I can do will get lost.

But I'm fine, I guess. I want to say that :P I wrote this not to whine, but to say I'm still alive :P though it doesn't really show. I'm really demotivated and uninspired when it comes to these things I've been doing for dA. But I have been working on something else, and it's hopefully going to become my true passion project soon.

I don't think I'll be quitting dA altogether, I have all these things in the works and they will see completion :shakefist:
Dragon WIP by AEmiliusLives  Wolverine WIP, bub by AEmiliusLives  Scorpion's lair gate WIP by AEmiliusLives

Even some of my first deviations ever are WIPs that I have yet to complete! :O

Voldemort WIP by AEmiliusLives  Doctor Zira (WIP) by AEmiliusLives  Mortal Kombat - Shao Kahn (WIP) by AEmiliusLives

So I guess that's it for this time's quarterly journal thingy of mine. Thanks.
I only write journals every four months (in April, August and December), but I felt like I had to say something about this here and now.

Several days ago, someone who wishes to remain anonymous, informed me of this situation: someone involved with this MKW Animation Studio had stolen several of my Disney Villains 3D fanart, along with several other deviant's 2D and 3D art, and included it in their portfolio. Other people affected contacted the person responsible for this, and made her remove some of the stolen art from her social media accounts, and some from her website too. At this point, she claimed to be an innocent victim, falsely accused, who has a legitimate 2D&3D studio, and that all of this was due to some honest mistake made by her webdesigner. But when I see my material (with my signature cropped out of the pictures) all over her website and social media, I cannot believe any honest mistake has been made. Furthermore, here you can see how some of the people who discovered all this and confronted her, took the trouble of contacting some of the professionals and studios cited in her resume, long story short: nobody knows this person or her 'studio'. So I wonder what happens when someone tries to hire her to do some of the 2D&3D work she showcases in her completely fictional portfolio, which is made out of promotional artwork by Nintendo, Square-Enix, My Little Pony and others that she had nothing to do with, plus fanart stolen from some of us.

Here's a screencapture I made of the 3D Anime Character Design section of her portfolio, where seven of my deviations are displayed without my permission. I contacted this person via dA, because even here at dA itself she had some of the stolen art displayed in her gallery, and so far I've had no answer.
Art-theft by AEmiliusLives
Coincidentally, this whole thing happened around a time when several people were asking me to send them my actual 3D models, and other people are asking for me to please make them available somehow. What happened with all this only made me decide I'll never do that. For starters I'm the first one to realize that my models are nowhere near good enough to sell, but now that some people is capitalizing on my renders, I don't even want to imagine what such people might do if they had access to my actual sculptures. Probably I should stop offering high resolution versions of my renders too? I'll see what I'll do about that.

Sorry about this rant, but I just had to say something. Since it seems there's little else I can do. January's been rough on me, this happened, my modem broke and left me without internet connection at home, my dog died... and don't get me started on what's going on in my country. Hopefully the rest of 2015 will be more kind to me.
My 2014 in (fan)Art banner by AEmiliusLives

It's been four months since the last one, so here's my latest journal entry, which also happens to be the last of 2014!

So many things happened in 2014. Not all positive, I must say. But my deviantArt balance of the year can only be positive, specially compared to my lacklusterish 2013. I've made a lot of fanart this year, not all good, true :P But I've stuck to my schedule and I've had at least one deviation out per month. Being my Disney Villains series the most viewed and consistent in my production. But I've tried not to limit myself to that, and I've delved into other franchises and properties when it comes to fanart. Which I plan to intensify in 2015, and I have plans for some original works as well, using mediums that aren't new to me, but that are almost unseen in my dA gallery so far. The Disney Villains series will continue, maybe more spaced out now, I still haven't decided that.

I made this too long/didn't watch video summary of my year in (fan)art :P Including flash animations, main renders of my 3D sculptures, turntable animations, WIP renders and alternate renders, plus a tiny glimpse into a couple of my upcoming 2015 works.

I also made the meme version. For some reason I'm proud of having a full grid, with no empty spaces :P I didn't do this thingy in 2012 and 2013 precisely because there would have been too many blank spots. But now it's full, and it's not 100% Disney, which also was one of my goals this year, to diversify a bit :P much as I love Disney.
My 2014 in (fan)Art by AEmiliusLives

That's it, I guess. I hope 2015 will be as good as 2014 in terms of (fan)art for me. Maybe in the personal aspect 2015 is already looking tougher than 2014. But even in my pessimism and cynicism I have hope and I'm seeing the glass half full. I find even pessimism ends up having a bright side: if my fears are confirmed, I'll be already prepared. If I was mistaken, I'll be happy to admit it, and pleasantly surprised :P

Thanks for your support and encouragement, and for your attention in general. It is a priceless thing to have. I'm wishing everybody the very best. Cya in 2015.


Happy 2015 BTTF style by AEmiliusLives

AEmilius' Journal #7

Journal Entry: Thu Aug 28, 2014, 6:22 PM

It's been four months since the last one so it's time for another journal entry. I don't really have much to say, though. I'm still around, trying to stick to my sort of schedule, but I have to say my dA-experience has changed a bit. I'm a little disappointed really. In a relatively short time I've seen many friends leave dA, others are drifting away, other people suddenly have an odd attitude towards me, while a few act like they owe me something so they come and +fav everything I do. I watch a lot of people who don't give me the time of day, and that's perfectly alright. I will not stop supporting anybody I like because they don't reciprocate every comment or fav. It's not a trade of any sort for me. I do appreciate all forms of feedback, but I don't want for it to feel like any sort of obligation for anyone. 

I used to have a 'featured friends' box in my profile, but some people were kind of jealous and I ended up removing it. I hate it when things become some sort of popularity contest, I hate it when we can't be grownups and this place becomes some sort of schoolground. These things make me feel like giving up on the 'social' side of the community. I've already stopped thanking for +favs, which is sad because it makes me miss a great way to meet new people. But I just had to, after several episodes with people who acted like my thanking for a favorite unleashed Armageddon, and threatened to report me, block me and such. It's sad how this place can seem to be so full of irrational, immature people sometimes. Sigh... It's not all bad, of course. I didn't really want to complain or to sound this whiny. I can't be grateful enough for the still-good part of my dA experience. It gives me motivation and focus, which is a priceless thing to have.

Anyway, on a lighter note, I just found out the group Target-View featured my Hades as their best submission of July 2014 :D They must have had a really bad month :P Also, I've finally been learning how to use ZBrush a bit, and I'll be incorporating some of its tools and features to my sculptures. I had used Zbrush before to fix some errors when I was exporting some models from other softwares, but never really to do something from scratch in its environment. This month I used fibermesh to make my Horned King's fur, and I'm pleased with the result. My previous sculpted version of the fur looked like some sort of cushion with cat scratches on it :giggle: I've also been experimenting with some cool brushes. So I'll be sculpting other movie, videogame, cartoon and comicbook characters soon, using these new-learned thingies. I already had half a dozen Disney villains in the works, and last week I made a lot of progress with two new villainesses, so that's still going. Even though the "Disney Villain the 28 of every month" thingy might change in 2015. I might do heroes/heroines, or sidekicks, or something else every 28 next year. But I'll still make new villains and revisit some old ones.

Alright, I guess that's it. Lucky I didn't have much to say :P
TL;DR :P Thanks for sticking around.

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Two years on dA!!!

Journal Entry: Mon Apr 28, 2014, 7:02 AM
Woohoo! :dance: It's my :devart:nniversary :party: and continuing the tradition of my quarterly journal thingy, I had to say something about it.

It's been a great couple of years and I'm more glad than ever that I joined dA. I wasn't very active last year, but now I'm finally working more consistently in my fanart here. I brought back my Disney Villains, for over I year my 'collection' consisted in just Maleficent :P but now I finally resumed it and added JafarUrsulaFrollo and the Evil Queen to the series. With a new villain out the 28th of every month in 2014.

I also hope I'll be able to diversify a bit and making other pieces of fanart. I'm planning several new series, including fanart of Masters of the universeSilent HillSTAR WARS, videogames, movies, cartoons and more. I want to post more photographs again, some in anaglyph form, more flash animations, more coloring works, and I also want to start a collection of more personal, original 3D and 2D works this year.

Err... what else happened since my last entry here...? There was the lunar eclipse, I took some video, and this is the result of that. I'm not too happy with the editing. I made these two versions and I'll probably make a third.

I thought I'd try out this new Sketchfab-dA integration thingy, so I thought I'd include this here. It's a prop from my latest Disney Villain (out today), the Wicked Queen's chest. It can be viewed, moved and rotated in real-time 3D. It's just a test, I don't really know if I'll actually pursue this thingy.

So, for a long time I thought about this journal entry and there was a million things I wanted to say... I should have written some of it down, because right now I can't remember anything for the life of me :giggle: So I'll just thank all of my :dalogo: friends and watchers. I hope my work has been interesting on some level. I sure have appreciated your work, valued your input and enjoyed your friendship.
Here's to many more years! Cheers 

Æmilius Rose

2013: goodbye and good riddance!

Journal Entry: Sun Dec 29, 2013, 7:25 PM
This journal entry was supposed to go up the 28th, but I forgot about it. And I guess that shows how detached from "my dA" I've been lately, much to my own regret. I love this place and I feel like I've spent a whole year trying and failing to be more involved and active. It's been 20 months since I joined, and I haven't accomplished much. I didn't have any narcissistic goals or anything. It wasn't recognition or watchers what I sought. I'm more than happy with the people I've come to know thanks to dA, and I'm absolutely grateful for their support and encouragement. My goals, if any, were all about my own growth and learning, about me exploring techniques and areas in fanart and original art that were unknown for me, or that I've neglected over the years. And, at most of that, I've failed. Out of a mixture of being a procrastinator, and having lost my already few vestiges of willingness to... simply "do stuff", I guess. It's been a difficult year on more personal grounds too. Losses, disappointments and setbacks were probably the main reason behind my big fat lack of motivation.

New Year probably doesn't mean anything to most people, but it does to me. I see it as a new cycle, a turn of the page, as a blank canvas, which can be scary too. I'd go crazy if I didn't see it that way. If I didn't reset, reboot, turn the page. So in light of what my 2013 was like, I have no "resolutions" for 2014. I won't set myself up for failure again. I had too many plans and projects for 2013, and most of them went into some limbo. It's not unlike me to be unable to finish things, or to take too long to get to the highest possible degree of completion I can get things to, which is never quite 100%. But this year has been particularly frustrating and unproductive. So many things went to waste, timing, opportunities, collaborations... And it's my own doing. I'm not complaining, I'm not blaming anyone. For whatever reason, I simply was unable to find within myself that... thing that drives you to pursue your goals. The whole year I even felt like "I wished I wanted" to do this or that. And whenever I felt a little motivated, I also felt some weird, irrational yet familiar fear to exposing myself that made me go back into my cave.

Why, believe it or not this wasn't meant to be another whiny, negative journal. But simply a realistic one. My next journal entry (april 28th, 2014) will mark my 2nd anniversary of joining dA, and I hope it'll be less of the same old Mea Culpa thing :P and more about new projects and hopefully it'll be surrounded by many new deviations.

Thank you, dA friends, community and watchers, for all the encouragement and the patience. Even in my inactivity, you've still made my dA experience unique and priceless. Reminding me again and again of how wonderful this place is, and making me glad still that I joined.

So, goodbye and good riddance, 2013.
May we all have a great, stimulating, productive and fulfilling 2014 =)
Happy New Year!

Edit: I added a couple things, as if I hadn't rambled enough, I know :P And I changed the title because I realized calling it "Happy New Year!" was some sort of false advertising considering what the actual tone of the journal was :P

So it's time again for my... quarterly... journal... thingy. Not much going on this time. I feel a bit more frustrated each time about not spending as much time here and working on "my art" as I wish I did, or as I originally intended. But well... life is what it is, and I have the time and motivation that I have, and seems I can't find a way to make some more out of thin air. Then I've also been sick, since the end of june, really. What I thought were gastric problems turned out to be kidney related. Then went through a lot of stress in july and with my defenses in an all time low I caught the mother of all colds and had fever for days... The kidney thing is still messing up all of my system, at least I'm over my cold now. Looking forward to going back to normal but, after so many months, I'm somehow not counting on it to happen anytime soon, though. 

I hate whining, and I'm glad I don't write journals more often or then I'd whine more often. Then there's always facebook :P I hope I'll be able to post a few more photos soon, though they don't make very successful deviations, I still like them and I'm happy to be able to show some of them here. I hope I'll be able to do a couple Disney villains in a row, so I'll be able to call it a "collection", 'cause right now there's only Maleficent and a Hades WIP, and that's hardly a collection/series :P I hope I'll be able to make some more Mortal Kombat fanart and some videogame and movie "tribute" pieces in general. When I joined, I intended to do some Silent HillStar Wars and Masters of the Universe fanart, there's none of that in my gallery yet, but it should happen at some point. This year has been specially frustrating in that sense, I haven't been able to do even 10% of all the things I set out to do, here and out. Like my website, which was supposed to open in january and it's still not happening. But well...

Since I joined dA, I've been tagged three times (specifically, that I recall right now), a million years ago, though. Sorry :giggle: I'm a bad person. I always intended to respond, but forgot, then felt too old to play and I suck at this :P so I never got around doing it. Perhaps it was precisely breaking that tag-chain what led to my downfall here :giggle: so I thought I'd respond here to all three, in my way and without really tagging anybody else specifically. Which probably defeats the whole purpose of trying to lift the tag-curse, since I'll be breaking the rules :P but hell, screw it. I'm old :P Tag, I'm it.

Tagged by :iconhiscules:

1) Do You Like Cats? (The musical or those furry things?)
I do like the musical, and I do like the actual domestic felines :P I don't have any of my own right now. Had one ages ago. Though now a neighbor's cat had her kitties in my garden, and they all still hang out here :P even when several months have passed :P
2) Do You Like Ice Cream? (The musical or that furry thing?)
I'd definitely love an icecream musical :P I sure do love the frozen dessert. Can't have any right now :(
3) Do You Like Serious Questions?
I'm a serious guy, so I'm probably better at dealing with serious questions. But I'm fine with non-seriousness too.
4) Do You really???!!!! Okay then...
Uh... yeah.
5) Couple of your most favorite Comix? (Mine are 'Fables' by Willingham and 'Sandman' by Gaiman...)
I'm not too hot on comics, nor was this dark corner of the world I was raised in. I did grow up buying the comic versions of cartoons I'd watch. Like He-Man, Mazinger-Z and stuff, or the Mortal Kombat comics. I did love a DC series called Batman and the Outsiders, and got some issues of X-Men and Uncanny X-Men as well. I also read some detective and adventure comics by Argentinian authors.
6) Why did you join deviantArt? To share your works or to do so and see other people's works? Some other reason?
Yeah, I guess that's it. To have a place for my stuff, and the community experience has been a lot better than I expected. I've learnt and improved a lot just from watching and following talented people here.
7) Why don't you like Cats or Ice Cream? Are those too furry for your taste?
I do like them, though I prefer my icecreams shaved, with no fur on them.
8) [Something YOU really want to answer to, but I was too stupid to ASKerize!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]?
Errr... I'm not good at being interrogated, so that's probably both my answer and the reason why I can't come up with any other answer :P
9) What is your favorite kind of Art? Audio, Visual, TXT or something else?
Film was always my first and biggest love, so I guess that's audiovisual?
10) Are You My Friend? Why not? (Those abscesses weren't my fault and surely ARE curable due witch doctorizerin' and faith to THE GREAT PUMPKIN!!!!!!!!)
So you're the one I got these from!
11) [Have 2 do this:] What is the difference between a raven and a writing desk?
I haven't the slightest idea :tip-hat:

Tagged by :icondomnics:

1. If you had the power to draw something on paper and have it come to life, what would you draw, and why? 
Good question :O I never thought of something quite like that, even though I've read and seen movies with similar premises... I don't know. I'm not good at drawing so the thing come to life would probably look awful :XD: Maybe I'd draw, in a scribblenauts fashion, a "giant, fire breathing, flying, ridable dragon pet" :XD:
2. What are your worst fears? And if you feel that's too personal, what was the weirdest dream or nightmare you've had? Or do both.
Don't know... having lost relatives and seeing my own deteriorate, my worst fear probably has to do with health. It is a priceless thing and you take it for granted when you're young. Then you become older and all the other bogeymen become less important.
3. If you could chose to be any cartoon character, who would it be? 
I always felt identified with monstrous anti-heros :P From Quasimodo to the Beast, maybe even the Phantom of the Opera :P But that's how I feel, and those aren't cartoons I guess. I don't know what character would I actually choose to be. Maybe one that's able to fly :P
4. This is kind of similar to Question #3, but if you could switch spots with a character from any movie, who would it be, and do you think you'd be better than who you switched with? (Ex. Harry Potter-- Switch with Ron Weasley. Are you helpful or do you just mess things up?) 
Odd. I do feel identified with characters, but I very rarely have that feeling of wanting to be part of something. I hate disencounters and misunderstandings, I always want to be there to set things straight :P But I can't think of a particular movie or character right now. I suck at this :P
5. This was taken from an interview I recently watched, but if you were supposed to buy only one thing for everybody in the world, what would it be?
I can't think of one physical thing that everybody needs that's important enough. Probably I'd invest in something related to education. If I had to narrow it down to one physical thing, it'd probably be a classical literature book or an encyclopedia :P
6. What was your worst and best Halloween costume?
We don't really do Halloween here as such. I've rarely worn any costumes in my life. Once I went as a pirate, I put it together myself and I was proud of it, but probably looked lame. So that must be both my worst and my best.
7. What was it that inspired you to create? (Draw/Write/Take pictures) 
In general? Again, movies where always my first love. But I also grew up loving fantasy, legends, fairy tales and fables, and I also had a collection of comicbook versions of literature classics, which later in life I read in their full form. All that was probably what fueled and molded my imagination the most and at the earliest.
8. How would you spend your last day on Earth? 
Right now I'm biased, because I'm eating only "hospital-food" :P So I want to say: eating all sorts of candy, icecream, desserts, pastries and delicacies. Sweet-tooth me :P
9. If you could be friends with a superhero or a super-villain, who would it be? 
Probably supervillains have more fun :P I always thought I'd like to hang out with Magneto, for some reason :P I love other villains' personalities, but not quite their lifestyles :P
10. If you could erase a/some singer/s from the Earth, who would it/they be? Or just remove a song/s from the world? 
I'm not that much of a hater, I just ignore what I dislike. I let it be. I do wish they stopped using "Hooray for Hollywood" at the Oscars, though :P Random, but I just thought of that.
11. What color do you think you most represent? 
I love burgundy, the color :P I don't even know if I use it at all, in artworks :P but I like it in clothes and... household goods :P I do like the very obvious combination of peach/cerulean (for highlighting and backlighting respectively) in artworks.

Tagged by :icondimitrikjr:

1. Favorite Disney Movie? 
I love so many, both classic and renaissance. Not so much the current ones, though. Probably just because I'm old. I think the one that tickles me the most in all the right ways is "Beauty and the Beast". It wasn't love at first sight, for some time I considered it a sort of low point between "The little mermaid" and "Aladdin" :XD: but it later became my alltime favorite.
2. Have you watched ever Jean Cocteau's Beauty and the Beast?
I have, a long time ago. I should see it again. I loved it and remember my friends found it scary :XD:
3. Best Looking character from an animated movie? (both male and female)
I'll always love princess Aurora, she probably looks older than she should, and some standards may have changed, but she's still number one to me. Then male...? Possibly Hercules, they did a greatly stylized work on all of his anatomy, dunno... Tarzan, Aladdin... they look great too. Among the good looking ones, my least favorite are the kinda stereotypical princes like Phillip, Eric, Derek, Snow White's, etc.
4. Top 5 non-disney animated movies?
In no particular order "The Last Unicorn", "Thumbelina", "The Secret of the Sword (He-Man & She-Ra)", "The Prince of Egypt", "Yellow submarine".
5. Are you excited for the upcoming Disney Movie Frozen?
Not "excited", but I am kinda looking forward to it. There's a lot of the latest Disney movies that I sort of overlooked at the time. I think Disney lost it's way a bit and I found most of the movies of the last decade kinda unappealing, compared to the classics and the ones I grew up with. But that's also because I'm old, again :P
6. Mermaids or Centaurettes?
Mermaids, no doubt. Their world is entirely alien to us.
7. Favorite Glen Keane Character?
I had to look it up, because I remembered the name as being an animator, but wasn't sure what characters were actually his 'cause I'm no trivia expert :P I think my fav must be the Beast.
8. Which fairytale would you like to see being made into a Disney movie?
Many I can think of, Disney already did as short films, but I would like to see as feature films. None in particular, though. I'd actually prefer something based on myth or legends, maybe the 1001 Arabian nights again, oriental tales, rather than more of the typical fairy tales I might now about. I would like it if they dug up some neat, obscure one. But I think they've already covered the basics, between shorts and features.
9. Audrey Hepburn or Marilyn Monroe?
I guess I'd pick Marilyn. Though I respect them both, I'm not really crazy about either of them.
10. What's your favorite color?
As I said in the last question of the previous tag, burgundy IRL and peach/cerulean for art, I guess :P Though I use gold a lot, if that's a color :P Most of my 3D things have some gold. And I made it champagne-based, not yellow.

Then I'm supposed to make my own questions and list 10 facts about me or something, so I'll merge the tags and do it once. 'Cause... screw the rules :P

Ten Things You Didn't Know About Me

... possibly

1. I went to three different highschools #problemchild :P
2. My "Resurrection" thing has nothing to do with Jesus :P and Ĉmilius is my "Ricean" vampire OC's name.
3. I am an only child.
4. Alfred Hitchcock is one of my favorite filmmakers and I have almost 60 of the movies he directed.
5. Carl Sagan is another of my idols :P I have all of his books and the Cosmos series.
6. I still have my collection of Disney movies in vhs format, of course many I bought again in dvd and bluray format. As I still have some old soundtracks in audio cassette. 'Cause I'm old :P
7. I always loved film soundtracks and I never really followed bands or vocalists. Most of the cds in my collection are movie scores. Then Sarah Brightman happened to me, in the mid-'90s. I do buy and listen to all sort of things, but don't follow any other artists as closely.
8. Brand-wise, Nintendo and Apple have no place in my life :P I don't hate them either, of course.
9. I said "I'm old" a million times in this journal :XD: but I don't have any issues with it. I'm just trying to establish I know I'm no longer cool :P and current things aren't really targeted for me or my generation and I'm cool with that :P
10. I love thrillers and Michael Crichton was one of my favorite authors. My others favorite authors are Jules Verne and Anne Rice. And I have every single book of theirs that I was able to get. Then I read all sorts of things apart from these, of course.

My Questions

Again, I'm not tagging anybody, so if anybody wants to answer them, feel free to do it here or wherever :shrug:
1. What's your favorite movie adaptation (a movie based on a book, tv show, comicbook, videogame, etc.)?
2. Are you an active fan of something/somebody? If so, who/what is it and what do you do?
3. What branch of the arts you wish you were talented in, other than what you are already good at?
4. What is your favorite art form?
5. What place in the world would you like to visit and would you live there if you could?
6. Where/how/doing-what do you picture yourself in five years?
7. Do you cook, if so what's your specialty?
8. What is your favorite... err... ancient culture/civilization?
9. I'm running out of ideas... err... what question would you like to be asked? :P
10. I have to do this :P If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?

Now, if someone else tags me in the future, I'll put a curse on him, his children and their children EVIL Laughter! or I'll answer it in the next journal, on december 28. Have a nice day. Aaand nobody's reading this far :P 
PS: I'm old.

My first YEAR on dA!

Journal Entry: Sun Apr 28, 2013, 4:49 PM

Continuing the tradition of my quarterly journal, I felt like I had to come here and say a little something. Specially since today marks my one-year anniversary of joining :dalogo: deviantArt :dance:

I haven't been as active lately as I was when I began, but I still come here almost every day and keep checking out, favoriting and commenting on the amazing works by the great artists I've come to discover, respect and admire :)

I fully intend to become more active here again. I've been stuck with too many things on my plate. And lately I've been feeling like, if I'm not doing what I should be doing, then I have no right to do what I want to be doing either... am I making any sense? :facepalm: Anyway :P I'm trying to catch up and resume many of my ever unfinished projects. Diversify my artworks a bit more. Some more photography will finally make it's way into my gallery, and I'll finally complete the many things I once set out to do and threatened several people with :giggle:

I want to thank my :dalogo:friends and everyone who might read this for this amazing year. I always say it, but it's a renewed message since I still mean it: this community, its activities and support have restored my agonizing faith in humankind :XD: Being in touch with creative people, who generate things, makes a world of a difference. While the rest of the web seems to be full of jealous, idle trolls, this place is a golden haven I'm so glad to have found.

Ĉmilius :rose:

It's been 8 months since I joined :devart: and I'm glad I did, it was one of the highlights of my year. Finding a place with likeminded and supportive people, where I could exploit more than just one of my interests, learn new techniques and get amazing and immediate feedback =D

Four months ago, I made a journal entry much like this one, being all excited and, apparently, at the peak of my dA activity. Then such activity dropped dramatically soon after that :facepalm: I stuck around, kept browsing, commenting and faving, but hardly submitted anything in months. I still feel the same way about this place, I'm glad I joined. I just got off track and lost my focus, had too much on my plate for a while and ended up stalled. Sadly it happens to me often and I can't force myself out of it. Anyway... I'm not apologizing or anything, it's not like anyone was expecting something from me... or is it? :shrug: But on the other hand I do feel a little bit like I've somehow let down everyone who's been so friendly and supportive :forgiveme: And I did have to drop out of a couple things I wanted to be a part of, simply because of this sort of... block of mine, combined with my wanting to focus on something else, outside of dA, which eventually didn't happen either... or "yet".

For some reason I have some sort of illusions set on the turn of the year, always have. It's silly, and nothing really changes, but I do see it as a turn of the page and a sort of fresh start. So if I have any New Year's resolution, it'd be making the most of 2013 and finally doing several things I've always wanted to do and only talked about for years. At least I will finally give it my most serious try now =P and dA will play a part in that too.

So, that's it for this entry. Thanks for putting up with my quarterly yapping =P I wanted to say a couple things and I'm probably babbling about nothing and leaving the most important thoughts out. I always wrap up with the feeling I'm making no sense :facepalm: Lol.

I want to thank my dA friends for all the generous support and encouragement =D
And wish you all the best for 2013! :iconchampagneplz:

Thanks again ThreshTheSky for the premium membership :thanks:
I was waiting for something more interesting to happen, but I think this is an even better occasion than whatever event I was actually waiting for. I just realized it's my four months anniversary here at :devart: and I just wanted to say a few thingies in my first and, most likely, my only journal entry. I mean, I yap enough in descriptions and comments, nobody needs more of that :P

So... four months, it isn't really long, but it seems like the longest I've been committed to anything in a while :P And it must be because it's been so extraordinary. My :dalogo: experience has been truly fulfilling and stimulating. And it's been so great talking to you guys :) so many accomplished artists, who must be showered in comments and faves, taking time to reply, to thank me for some comment, to give me tips and advice :D Of course there's also people who will be all upset and will accusse you of spamming their profile, after all you've done is taking the time to go thank them for a fave'n'run, and given them a free pageview too. What a crime, failing to see their "Don't thank me" sign. Sigh... Anywhoo...

It's also been wonderful to become involved in some groups activities, contests, tributes and such. Just to be part of cool projects, with great artists participating, has been a complete joy. This almost sounds unlike me, I usually don't like so much saccharine :P so imagine how heartfelt these words are. I'm just loving it here. And I'm also a person who normally can't stand being exposed and evaluated in any way. And here you expose yourself and your work is subject of evaluation and judgement, obviously. But it's been such a positive experience I didn't even have to worry about it. A rare thing when, it seems, the anonymity of the internet seems to bring the worst out of people. I've suffered that enough elsewhere, and art theft, and trolling. But not here :D

:dalove: I can't thank fellow deviants enough for that. Specially friends and watchers, for the priceless, continuous support and constructive input. It's probably not easy to watch me :P I mean, my various interests will seem incompatible to some people. I got my first watchers after my Phantom of the Opera works, which I've abandoned for a while, but will resume it ASAP. Other watchers came after my Mortal Kombat deviations, then came some Disney ones. And at some point I plan having other themes around here, which go from 80's cartoons to survival horror games, from classical movies fanart to the best selling soprano of all time. There's also my stereoscopic images, I know it's a bit of a rare artform, and not everybody cares for such things or have 3D glasses at all, but I do enjoy making them and probably will continue to do so. In the form of 3D conversions, 3D photos, and 3D versions of some of my regular deviations.

Something I also want to have here are some photographs, none of them too brilliant, of course :P I don't have a great camera, or very interesting photo ops. I already have some photos in my gallery. I've been sorting some more for uploading  here. And I can't help but to wonder how will watchers receive those. What would seem less spammy :P  Or what will be more convenient, uploading a bunch all at once, or maybe just one every blue moon? Or perhaps I shouldn't even worry about these things at all? :shrug:

I really wish there was something else I could do to give something back. I really admire the people I've added to my watch and the works I've added to my favorites. I really want to support my :dalogo: friends and deviants in general. I always try to give some constructive and specific feedback, I reply to every commenter and thank for all the favoriting, vote in polls and contests, I've suggested some DDs, I return all the llamas :P I think it's the polite and decent thing to do. And I only fave'n'run myself when there's already an avalanche of comments. I keep wondering what else could I do, if I could perhaps create some group, but there's thousands already. Or post some weekly or monthly journal entries featuring the best works of the week/month by the people I watch, or... I don't know. Maybe it's just a dumb idea, though well-intentioned :P

Wrapping up this random babbling, I want to close saying that I actually joined :dalogo: two years ago, well I opened an account, but never really did anything with it, and closed it soon after that. Now I suddenly thought of giving it a try and returning, and I'm glad I did. I want to thank so many people for these 4 months, but I specially want to thank SBFlyFan, for the support, for telling me I'd like this place and would do fine here, and how nice and supportive a community it was. I'm so glad and grateful that you gave me that little push in this direction =D If you had said "dA...? Meh...", I would have stayed away and missed all this :P

Again, thank you, everyone =D I know... TL;DR :P Lol.